I have come to realize that for awhile I have been living solely out of obligation. Only doing what had to be done and not really doing much of what I want to do. So lately I have been trying to remedy the situation by finding a balance in my work and play. I started my solution by going tto Oaklahoma City for ICYPAA which is the international congerence of young peopl in A.A. I had an amazing time there it was really eye opening to not be the youngest person in the room recovering. On my trip I got close to alot of people that I had already met but never taken the time to get to know as a result I have made several friends for life!

After ICYPAA I decided to start spreading my wings and do more things that weren't necessarily comfortable. So I hae started spending more time with one of my friends from ICYPAA that lives about half an hour away from. When I am there we normally just hop ion the truck and find some trouble to get into. Which for me is way new...I like to have a detailed plan and follow it but it has been great to live on a whim. Last weekend that consisted of heading down to a friend of hers farm and helping out. I loved it down there...they had goats, cows, chickens, dogs and cats. It was so wonderful to just be for awhile and it didn't hurt that all the animals were so very lovable. I actually had a billy goat try to get in my lap with me...hehe fond memories.

I even got a job offer from a doggy grooming place...we went in to bath her dog and as a thank you I decided to help out with the a few of the pups. I talked to the owner and told her that my dream was to open a chain of doggy stores that would be a grooming, sitting and merchandise venture. After that she offered me a possition at her stor. Although that is pretty much an impossibility at this point due to transportation still it was very touching and a little reaffirming that maybe I'm worthy I guess.

So I'm getting ready to head up to Missouri possibly and just wanted to touch base and tell you all that I am doing well and love all of you!!!