So very many walls I have built I made them all to protect me from the shame and guilt.

Now I want to break them all down but without them I fear my emotional safety would be nowhere around.

I never thought I could want feel but here I am and this need is real but I'm not sure how to deal.

Time has made me see that there is so much more to me then just the ice cold little girl who didn't know how to handle this world.

I don't know how to let this woman I've become grow because this life has felt like a show I just smiled so they wouldn't know.

And now I want to let them see the real me but I can almost not help but resort to hiding.

Every dirty look and little remark has left a permanent scar but I still want to be remembered for only my heart.

So I try a little each day to say everything I mean and to mean everything that I say!



Written By: Sami Heart-Speaker
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