I have seen her many times and when she walks by I find myself scurrying away to a hidden dream in my mind.

Her eyes are the deepest blue...when I look into them I pray that these visions I keep having will soon come true.

She seems so lonely as she brews my coffee and I often question if maybe I could make her happy.

I want so bad to ask her what she is doing Saturday but when trying to order an awkward hello is all that I can say.

So I go on spending my mornings buying outrageously exspensive coffee because that girl behind the counter is my favorite fantasy.

Written By: Sami heart-Speaker
Copyrighted@2008

All the girls are back in town it has been long overdue and it is finally time to go completely crazy.

While partying all night long we dance in the car to that same old song that makes us feel right while we are doing wrong.

We have been held back by school and babysitting but now all the reasons for being responsible have been put on hold...so we are letting it all go.

When ever the three of us get together every situation changes for the better and girls we will be crazy forever.

No shame in this trio...there is not a quiet one in the bunch as we laugh and reminisce loudly over lunch.

Talking about all the memories we made back in the day. Then we all put our hands in and promise to remain crazy!!



Written By:Sami Heart-Speaker
Copyrighted@2008

They say that time dulls all pain but the opposite has been true for me. The more past tense it was the more vivid the nightmares would become.

These marks of my past linger here on my arms and make my present feel like a second place at least in the wake of all the harm I caused.

But I do not have to live back in those days anymore...I stand here so totally different then I was before.

I am so scared to let go and be free so terrified of being the real me. Although I think I will open my eyes and trule see.

Like the phoenix I wish to rise from this ash and fly high in the sky leaving the emotional scars behind.

It is all out there for the taking everything is just waiting and I no longer want to walk through the streets faking a smile.

And so I invite you to meet the real Sami...she has been gone awhile but I have faith that she still lives within me and it is time to set me free.



Written By: SAMI Heart-Speaker

Copyright@2008

The air is filled with a certain intensity this evening and something in the pit of my stomach telling me it's time to stop running.

Yet there is this little voice in my mind that is reminding me that I still have time before the pain starts catches up with me.

I am utterly conflicted...should I run or fight. Either way I remain seated as though I were wearing chains.

If I stay and deal with the uncertainty that dwell in the shadows of my mind the outcome I would prefer seems rather hard to find.

Although if I continue this marathon based on my fear then I doubt that I will ever make it to...well anywhere.

So I believe I need to embrace these scars and free my captured heart. I must face the demons that torment my soul to finally become whole.

Written By: Sami Heart-Speaker
Copyrighted@2008