I'm feeling weak it's too hard to sleep as all the arguing that we have been doing lately seems to linger here on me.

Have we not talked over our feelings enough for one night and why does everything I say end in a fight.

I fear that we will be totally lost if we keep going through all the reasons and explanation so repeatitively.

Can we not just speak about the way each of our days has gone thus far? Why has picking up your phone calls become so hard?

It seems to me that we are doing nothing but tearing us apart and I don't know how to leave this without a broken heart.

Look I know that you care and you understand that I love to share but I am beginning to feel totally relationship impaired.

Nothing makes any sense about this and it has been this way since around our first kiss.

I thought that we both wanted the same thing but all of your screaming has got me wondering.

I'm not looking for a way out necasarilly I just need to know if it is about the time that I ought to be leaving.

Written By:Sami Heart-Speaker

Copyrighted@2008

When this little impulse driven aries hence me was born momma had no idea what she was in for.

She caught a glimpse when I was seven it started with the appearance of a little critter followed by a plea from me "Mommy can we keep it please?"

Fast forward from then to now and you will find out that not much has changed I am still fairly partial to taking in strays.

I have been the reason for her stress and on a late night or two my absence left her completely restless.

She gives me that "Oh no" look as I say..."Momma may I fall in love with danger...no, alrighty then may I at least talk with this stranger?"

Still she will not back down from my defence and she swears that I am nothing if not heaven sent.

A mother's patience is something that I myself have yet to understand but I have seen and felt it's power first hand.

Even when I talk to that stranger and take a fall for that obvious danger she is still there to wipe my tears.

At night when the darkness of my subconscious takes a hold of me she is the one there to console me through my fear and always will be.

Written By:Sami Heart-Speaker
Copyrighted@2008

Flying through this place called life at light speed trying to escape those damn unpleasant memories.

I am not yet free of this baggage that so long ago laid its claim on me yet still I smile and try to just be.

In the night I struggle and I fight with the nightmares that seem to only exist to remind and scare.

In the day I'm mostly okay but sometimes an image or the scent of something familiar sends me into a steady spin.

My friends love and wish that I would let help but I remain still unwilling to become that dependant on someone else..

Family tries to carry on like nothing ever happened and don't get me wrong I am glad that they could forget.

Although here we are again because I haven't yet and even on my best days I still feel full of regret.

Written By: Sami Heart-Speaker
Copyrighted@2008

I heard this song for the first time today and it rocked my world so enjoy!!!

I've got Oklahoma City on my mind that's where I got swept up by her beauty and all this confusion was so easy to hide.

Yes it's true the girl looks like heaven but I swear she is going to pull me straight down to hell.

Stuck right here where her words sound sincere but her actions make it hard to tell.

Still with each glance of her eyes I swoon and with every touch from her hand I see stars and feel the moon.

Yet...oh no she is already spoken for but she tells me that the one doing the speaking she no longer adores.

Although I that fact means that there should be no more late night calls and that I should start building up some walls.

I guess I'm starting to understand that this is the type of infatuation that spawns many complications.

But I can't seem get her taste out of my mouth and in my dreams I must admit that I see us doing many unfaithful things.

So I will close by saying that I've got Oklahoma City on my mind because her air of mystery is still being so sweetly unkind.

Written By: Sami Heart-Speaker
Copyrighted@2008