I have tried to play it tough acting as though I never cried because of all time I have spent waiting.

So I had to go and write the poem because dad sometimes I still wonder if you are coming home.

All four us kids have made attempts in our way to be an unusual family but it seems you don't even want to be a daddy.

Which makes me wonder why you had me if you weren't ready. I get it kids are big responsibility.

But still you had the choice that I never did...it's not like I was sitting up there asking to live.

No...you were the one who helped to concieve me only to go on down the road and leave me.

I dont exactly wish you well no I pray you burn in hell for the pain you caused by treating you kids like an after thought.

Written By: Sami Heart-Speaker
Copyrighted@2008

I don't know if I will be able to get on tomorrow so I thought I would put my playlist on tonight. I hope you enjoy my selection!

Baby was the only one I wanted...when I finally found her I thought that all my searching was done.

Still it only took alittle while for her start playing games and now looking back it is just a crying shame the way we became.

Baby had my heart and then she went and broke it. I want to forget us in our entirety yet I cannot really cut ties completely.

So I am somwhere in between moved on and hung up but I think I might be okay if she just did not comtact me.

But of course she does with messages saying that she needs me and can't stop thinking about me but I know she is just lonely.

My heart remains in a million pieces from the things that happened back then and as I read those messages I'm steady remembering.

All the things that we said and/or did. Trying to figure out just how we came to our bitter end.

Although it does not matter either way...a heartbreaker she was then and heartbreaker she will stay.

Written By: Sami Heart-Speaker
Copyrighted@2008

Well I guess all your dreams came true so what else can I do except be nothing but happy for you.

Although something tells me your not totally pleased with who you have begun to be because you just gave me that wink.

I think it means you are wanting to backslide for the night and put away you pride...am I right?

Because if so you should really know that I have found someone new and she is certainly nothing like you.

No she is everything you weren't and only wants to be with me. Yet I still feel myself contemplating seeing you even if it means getting burned.

So what is a girl supposed to do when the one that got away back then comes into today wanting something?

Should I remain here in the right by staying home tonight? Or would it be more fun to break a rule or two and end the night with you?

Written By: Sami Heart-Speaker
Copyrighted@2008

She has a certain look in her eyes that I have never seen her wearing before tonight...it is a kind of hunger.

The logical part of me wants to resist and just forget all of this. Yet I can feel the pull getting stronger.

Many say that what we are doing is unwise and I cannot deny that this thing has the possibility to destroy lives.

Yet the passion is as hot as a fire while me and baby girl just focusing on fulfilling our desire.

Momma has already said "girl you really shouldn't" but it was just one of the moments where I could not listen.

Even though it feels so right that I know it must be wrong I think you would completely understand if you heard honeys siren song.

Written By: Sami Heart-Speaker
Copyrighted@2008